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Sunday, June 28, 2020

Up at 5 to prepare for today's marathon writing session with Chris.  Read through the script and took notes on all the lines and scenes that need editing.  At 9, Alice drove me to Henry's to get a large latte.  At 10, we were ready to edit. 

We went until 8 p.m., ten solid hours of editing and revising, from page 1 to page 130.  Chris and I  reviewed every line, whittled down dialogue, changes words, took out scenes, condensed scenes, and when we reached the last page, it felt as though we crossed the finish line to a very long marathon.  It was quite a feeling to go through the whole script and tighten everyone so carefully. Every word seemed to matter, every pause and phrase.  I felt we'd accomplished something very special.  This script is good.

Alice had roasted a lamb with potatoes and it was waiting for me upstairs.  I ate slowly in a deze.  I was wiped out.  It's been a while since I've been so exhausted.  But what a wonderful feeling.  Now I need to do this with Julia Milan, Zombie Cookies, and La Strav.

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Tuesday, June 16, 2020

Last day of the SYNLawn crew.  The lawn looks fantastic!



Can't wait to hear excerpts from this:



I hope it's loaded with crazy.

Trump's Tulsa rally is Saturday night.  It is such a gross spectacle from such a gross, tone-deaf, out of touch administration.  Awful.




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Monday, June 15, 2020

All full day of working and screenwriting when time allowed for it.  The SYNLawn crew was at it all day today.  They'll be finished tomorrow.  We can't wait to see what the lawn looks like!

I love this scene in Unforgiven:


So inspiring.

Working through early scenes, marking what needs to be updated in Grandudes.  The day flew by.  Time moves so quickly when writing. 

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Sunday, June 14, 2020

Last night I watched Mandingo, a film from 1975 about a black slave fighter named Mene who lives on a slave breeding plantation and endures all sorts of unimaginable horrors before eventually being boiled to death in a caldroun of water. 


Venisa at work mentioned the film to me.  She said her great-grandmother, who remembered that time as a young girl, found the film accurate. 

It was something watching such a brutle depiction of slavery from a 1970s production.  It had more in common with Ten Years a Slave than Gone With the Wind.  Perhaps it will experience the opposite effect of what Gone With the Wind is currently facing.  I read Roger Ebert's 1975 review of this film and it's very a interesting read:  Roger Ebert's Review of Mandingo 

I went to bed around 2 and woke up around 8:30. 

After a few chores and items around the house, I spent the rest of the afternoon on Grandudes.  I need to make this script a priority.  There's so much left to be done.  Scenes 5-7 have been on my to-do list since last week.  Reimagining some of the details is tricky. 

For dinner, Alice made her absolutely delicious chicken katsu dish.  I just gobbled it up it was so good!



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Saturday, June 13, 2020

Up at 6:45 to draft a few Grandudes scenes before meeting with Chris at 10:30.  But before 10:30, I wanted to respond to a couple of texts received yesterday that were part of a group text involving 20 people, many I don't know whose only info are their phone numbers.  I think my friend Jamil may have created this text string.  I'm not sure.  At any rate, a day or two ago the 6-minute video featuring Kimberly Jones was sent on this group text.


One text said this:  "I understand her point. But burning and looting are not going to resolve the issues.  That frustration and rage being vented. After the riots the problems still exist. It doe force those in charge to look for solutions. Unfortunately we've been down this road so many times in the past. Hope this time some real change will occur."

A second text said this:  "I agree with Larry.  There's no justification for looting.  It not only provides a rationale for maintaining police forces, it results in the destruction or damage of innocent businesses and their owners.  How can the police be defunded when the survival of busInesses in our inner cities is threatened by looters and other people who want to burn them down?  Ironically, many of the businesses that were destroyed are owned by people of color who can least afford to recover from that damage.  I saw a photo of a female looter leaving a Victoria's Secret with about 30 bras in her arms.  No one can credibly argue that she "needed" all of those bras.  The looters are plain and simply selfish and irresponsible opportunists who are undermining the legitimate messages of the protesters"

I admit, I was annoyed.  I drafted a response to this that wasn't very nice.  Then I toned it down a bit and tried to make things less personal (hard to do, unfortunately...old habits die a slow death).  Still, my words still held a lot of sting.  I wanted them to.

I wrote this:  "Michael Hagan here...looting and rioting focuses on the what (what are they doing?).  What about the why (why are they doing it?)? Kimberly Jones effectively articulates in six minutes an economics lesson about America from the Black American perspective.  Rather than targeting the conversation on the what (i.e., looters stealing bras), a more challenging and compelling conversation might be gained from Kimberly Jones's focus on the why.  Her Monopoly analogy illustrates the consequences of her premise that "Economics was the reason that black people were brought to this country."  She is critiquing an economic system that from her perspective is "a fixed game" in which implicit social contracts between Black Americans and America itself is broken.  She is questioning why people that poor, that broke, that food and clothing insecure loot and riot.  Rioters destory and looters take.  I don't riot and I don't loot, in part because I don't need to. I'm good with how things are.  I have no issues with Target.  The system has my back.  The game works just fine for me.  But Kimberly Jones is not speaking for me.  She is speaking for those who are beyond fine, who are shunned and ignored from a system that does not have their back.  She is going deep into the core of American history and bringing to the surface some bitter, awful, ugly truths that we as Americans must finally confront.  We can't hide behind looted bras this time, America.  I suggest another listen to Kimberly Jones's economics lesson.  However, if you really want to focus the conversation on looting and rioting, sure, we can do that.  Let's talk about Tulsa.  Let's talk about Rosewood.  Let's talk about the origins of our American economic system, along with centuries upon centuries of the looting and rioting that history has recorded throughout the African continent.  If that's where you want to go, let's have that conversation.  I'm in!  But I'd much rather focus on the heart of the matter.  The why."

Almost immediately, someone responded, "Can I be removed frmo this thread plz?"

I'm finding my purpose in all this.  I'm finding my voice.  I'm the white guy who puts pressure on white people, not with a chainsaw, but with a wooden Board of Education paddle.  I'm the sheep farmer moving sheep from one sheep pen to the proper sheep pen, called, apparently, the "Authentic Allyship" pen (just learned that term today (see pic).

I got this from Margaret Grimsley

No one likes to leave a comfortable pen, espeically white Americans.

Anyway, met with Chris at 10:30 and we FaceTimed until 12:30 about Grandudes and the state of the world.  Our Grandudes rewrite is really coming along.  I'm enjoying it and love where it's going.

Our Thursday night Zoom sessions with the Petty family are really getting interesting.  Work is really getting interesting.  Our upcoming Wednesday afternoon Town Meeting will be one of the more charged and compelling Town Meetings the firm will have, I'm guessing.

It's the afternoon and I'm planning to catch up on this journal, read, revise a few more Grandudes scenes, then call it a day.

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Friday, June 12, 2020

Up early at 6 and downstairs by 7:15 a.m., drafting Grandudes scenes and revisions.  The three SynLawn workers arrived around 9 and it was a full day of hauling in gravel and sand to fill the two areas where the synthetic lawn will go.  I didn't mind the noise or distraction.  It all goes with the territory of creating a nice space.

Chris and I met at 10:30 and had to stop around 10:45 because I had a work-related task to complete.  We resumed around 11:30 and went until 1.  We decided to talk daily until every scene has been drafted or revised. The sooner we can get the script into Fred's hands the better.

Meanwhile, the drum beat resumes at work.  The new leader of the RACE Task Force, Jennifer Martinez, sent off a very detailed list of planning group ideas that she'd like Task Force members to consider.  I'll respond Sunday.  I need a day or two to think of the areas to focus on.  I know I'd like to help with Lunch & Learn Sessions and Guest Speaker visits, but I could also help in other ways that might demand more hours and commitments on my part.  I don't want to spread myself too thin, but also see opportunites to gain experience and work with people I like to work with. 

Throughout the week, I've been talking with colleagues who call me about software-related questions.  Often, we spend a few minutes talking about Word, then 20-30 minutes talking about race, the police, white privilege, and the state of the world.  It's really an amazing time.

The afternoon flew by.  Alice went to Japantown earlier in the day and brought home California rolls for lunch.  So good!  For dinner, I made our wonderful chicken tikki masala dish.  Yum yum yum!  In the evening, I took a nap for an hour or so, then worked on Grandudes until 11:30.  Bed soon followed and quickly, sleep.

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Thursday, June 11, 2020

Drove to SF this morning through fairly thick traffic through the toll and onto Fell St.  It was so warm and sunny in Oakland, but foggy in the Sunset.  I arrived at 8:15, before the work crew arrived to begin work on Alice's backyard SynLawn project.  We're covering to large patches in the back with synthetic lawn.  It should look very nice.  The crew will work through Monday, maybe Tuesday.

It's been a busy week, so I wasn't able to get too much screenwriting in.  The day flew by. 

We had panko chicken for dinner (so delicious!).  I went downstairs around 7:30 to log into our Petty Zoom chat.  Talk of police violence, George Floyd, and confederate statues dominated the discussion.  I was livelier than usual, throwing in my two cents on my thoughts on all these old Southern statues being removed.  Most were constructed around WWI, apparently, to keep black officers from feeling a sense of belonging.  Whether that's true or not I'll have to verify.  I read this detail in the NY Times or Washington Post.

I chatted with the family until 9, then called it a night.

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Wednesday, June 10, 2020

Today got away from me.  Our racquetball conversation with Glenn, Dorian, Tiger, Xavier, Ron, Steve, Jamil, Ari, Robbie and me was at 5 and I decided to make two batches of cookies.  I went to Safeway at 7:30 a.m. and got the ingredients I needed.  I made the cookies in the afternoon, but had to take plenty of work-related calls.  I finished baking at 3:30 and left my apartment at 4:50.  I arrived at Steve's at exactly 5.  We started around 5:15.  Steve has a great backyard setup and we all gathered together while social distancing, sharing stories and reflecting upon the events of the past two weeks.  It was a very positive, very informative, very inspiring conversation about race, white privilege, and the country we live in.  X said he's experienced more racism in California than in the South because it's so hidden here.  Whereas the South had to atone for its past, California hasn't had to atone for anything.  He had several interesting points to make.  Ari shared how frustated he felt the first year he arrived here beause he was failing as a teacher and not connecting with the students.  He had to rethink how to connect.  Glenn didn't know what he didn't know, but was ready to begin his journey learning more about race and the privilege that was sometimes not easy to see.  Robbie had a few Army stories to share, but said the Army protected him.  We all ordred dinner for ourselves, but Steve had beverages ready.  It was a nice evening that lasted until 7:30.

When I got home, I watched the documentary 13th.  I'd seen clips but not the entire film.  Very good.  I like that it's generated the kind of following it has.


It's only been a few years since Birth of a Nation has been discussed as a racist revisionist propoganda tool of the early 20th Century to promote white virtues at the expense of black evil.  That's a fairly new thing.  Before, say, 15 years ago, Birth of a Nation was revered for its technical brilliance and cinematic mastery.  It would be interesting to visit earlier film books to see how the film was talked about in the 30s-90s.

Love this article in the NY Times re LeBron James and other stars getting involved in this year's election.  LeBron James Voting Rights Group.

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Tuesday, June 9, 2020

Our Hanson Bridgett statement came out today:

June 9, 2020 (San Francisco, CA) – Over the past week, while we grappled with our response to the murder of George Floyd at the hands of the Minneapolis Police Department, we have taken stock of our own failures to speak publicly about the injustices in our society and the civil unrest experienced in our communities. As lawyers, we cannot and will not remain silent as our employees, clients, and fellow Black Americans are denied their most basic human rights.

When we were admitted to the practice of law, we swore an oath to uphold the Constitution of the United States, which guarantees equal protection of the laws to all American citizens. In our chosen profession, we use our voice and our power each day to advocate on behalf of clients in courtrooms and conference rooms, but all too often silence ourselves when it comes to issues adversely impacting our most vulnerable fellow citizens. While we hold diversity, inclusion, and equity as core principles at our firm, we understand that we need to do much more. We have a duty to speak up and work further to more aggressively address the illnesses of racial inequality and police brutality devastating our Black communities.

Just as the three officers who passively watched the murder of George Floyd were complicit in the violation of Mr. Floyd’s humanity, our past silence on these issues has revealed our own complicity. We cannot stand by and watch these atrocities against the Black American community, against George Floyd, Breonna Taylor, Ahmaud Arbery, and all other named and unnamed victims, and remain silent. The murders of these Americans and countless others remind us of the unequal protection under the law that people of color, and especially Black people, experience each day. Even while we praise ourselves for the social and economic progress we have made in other aspects of our society, we must acknowledge that many still struggle daily to achieve even the most basic of human rights.

This time must be different. We cannot simply compartmentalize our frustration and return to our usual routines. To our loved ones, friends, and colleagues who have been committed to this fight all along, we promise to join you, to reject silence, to confront and end racism and white supremacy, and to do everything in our power to end the injustice.

As a society, we now know this can be done. We are in the midst of witnessing an unprecedented investment of resources by our government to confront COVID-19 and to confront protestors seeking justice for George Floyd, Breonna Taylor, Ahmaud Arbery, and countless others. We must now demand and be a part of an even greater societal investment to eradicate the far more pernicious scourge of racism in our country, which has and will continue to cause the death and murder of millions.

As a firm, we are taking immediate action to re-evaluate and improve our own investment in and commitment to justice and equity by:

1.  Forming the Real Action Calling for Equality (RACE) Task Force, co-chaired by our Managing Partner, which will be charged with developing and implementing our action plan;
2.  Empowering our attorneys to use their individual voices and unique legal expertise to speak up and work aggressively to address racial inequality by forming new relationships and reforming existing relationships with public interest organizations for increased pro bono services related to racial justice and equity;
3.  Further increasing racial and ethnic diversity within our firm, especially within leadership ranks, by supporting the retention and promotion of attorneys and staff members of color, and addressing reasons for attrition among those groups;
4.  Identifying opportunities to support minority-owned businesses as vendors, suppliers, and prospective clients; and
5.  Pivoting our community investments to substantially increase financial support for organizations that work to advance equality, end police brutality, and right the historical wrongs visited on Black Americans.

We are also exploring opportunities for impact litigation and developing a fellowship program to give our attorneys the opportunity to devote a year of practice full-time to working on civil rights and social justice issues, such as reforming qualified immunity laws and strengthening police accountability programs.

These are first steps, and we commit to transparently accounting our progress in these efforts. This will not be a one-time statement from us, but is rather the first of many as we take the "real action" contemplated by our task force. As a California law firm, it is our responsibility to lead and support our allies in this cause, and we will not fail again.

Andrew Giacomini, Managing Partner
Kristina Lawson, Managing Partner-Elect

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Monday, June 8, 2020

I worked all day and composed a few scenes.  The SynLawn workers will arrive Thursday instead of today.  A few big jobs have come in.  That will keep me busy.  I left after dinner tonight so that I could have a few days in Oakland and take care of the garbage cans.  I'm meeting with my racquetball buddies at Steve's backyard Wednesday night.  That'll be fun.  I'm realling looking forward to seeing them.

I'm waiting to see the firm statement on the events of the past few weeks.  It hasn't come out yet.  Soon, I'm guessing.

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Sunday, June 7, 2020

We prepared the downstairs for the SynLawn guys will be installing the synthetic lawn this week.  That took most of the afternoon.  At 3, I met up with my Bellingham Gang to discuss the week's events and hear how everyone's managing their thoughts and reactions.  There sure is a lot going on right now.

For dinner, we cooked steaks on the Blackstone Grill.  Wow, they were good!  What a great little grill. 





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Monday, June 1, 2020

I won't forget this day anytime soon.  Having spent the weekend gardening, reading, relaxing with Alice and not paying too much attention to the news, this morning I read the NYTimes and WAPost, then went onto Facebook, something I rarely do.  My niece Nicole posted her reaction to the George Floyd killing.



It was powerful.  She received a few comments, which prompted me to comment as well.  I posted this:


"As a white male, in my 57 years of life, I've had exactly zero negative experiences with the police.  0.  As in none.  When I ask my black friends about their experiences with the police, it's like hearing stories from another world.  That's because it is another world.  When you dig deep and read the various chapters of the long history of this country, you will discover 400 years of the worst kind of racism, oppression, and hatred against black people.  It's all there and as voluminous and never-ending as the stories of our greatness and love of freedom and democracy.  And now look who currently occupies the Oval Office after Barack Obama, a guy who's become the greatest influencer of white supremacy in a generation.   The George Floyd video has been an endless 400-year loop that in terms of race defines this country.  How do we change that?  Speak out.  Vote.  Tell your friends of color that you're with them and have their back.  Read your American history.  Recognise and become aware of the internalized institutional racism all of us have been subjected to and must work on very hard to overcome.  Open your eyes as wide as they'll go.  Challenge white people to push beyond their own life experience to that other world where non-white Americans live vastly different life experiences each and every day."

I liked it enough to post on my Facebook page.  Then I talked to Lillian, my friend at work who I've known for almost a decade.  We've been talking about race issues since the beginning of our friendship.  She said Jerri, a black attorney at work, sent out an email and a link to an article to all the black attorneys and support staff at the firm, acknowledging what everyone was going through and reminding everyone to be mindful and protective of their own mental health.  Here's the article Jerri shared:

Maintaining Professionalism in the Age of Black Death

At 2:33 p.m. our managing partner Andrew sent out an email titled Special Firm Meeting: Response to Current Events:

HB Team, we are all aware of recent events impacting all of us.  Right now, many of you are personally being impacted by all of this, every day and many people around our firm are hurting, are angry and are exhaused.  I expect some of you are finding it very hard to work as you deal with so many emotions and with how much is going on around us.  We are scheduling a special meeting today at 3 to check in with you and to hear from you.  I hope you can join us.  If you can't join today, we will arrange another time to connect.

At 3 p.m. we had our WebEx meeting.  It got real in a hurry.  One of our partners Jahmal Davies, a black man who looks a bit like Michael Jordan in his prime, said his chest was tight and he found it hard to breathe.  He said the events of the past week have overwhelmed him. He shared a few stories from his life, and it all set the tone for what had followed.  Other folks shared their stories, some going back to childhood and the terror they experienced from the KKK.  I reiterated what I'd posted on Facebook.  It was unlike any firm forum I'd experienced.  It lasted two hours.  It was something.

After work, we got the Blackstone going and cooked rice and pork belly Benihana style. 





It was delicious!




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Sunday, May 31, 2020